My deepest and permanent healing (1 year anniversary)

This is the most precious part of my life and something I haven’t written about before. But I strongly feel it’s about time to give credit where credit is due.

This is by far the deepest healing I have experienced and I didn’t have to do anything for it. 14 months later, I’m still in awe and I will forever be in awe of such perfect love.

After over 3 decades in the new age and a life long search in all forms of “spirituality“, I had finally become agnostic. I had lost interest in all of it, as none of the “spirituality” I had dabbed in and experimented with gave me long lasting fulfilment or peace.

Then, after a terrible phase with many losses and healing from autoimmune and chronic illness, I realise I had a serious amount of unresolved trauma. By then, away from “spirituality”; I invested in pragmatic trauma healing work. It did wonders for me. I had finally managed to grow my business sustainably and consistently, which I had failed numerous times before the trauma healing work. My relationships had improved. My nervous system had so much more capacity. I was taking responsibility for my life like never before.
But somehow there was a constant nagging feeling in the background:
“Is that all there is to life?”

On the 12th of October 2021, I had an unexpected encounter with Jesus. The real Jesus of the bible. This powerful experience made me fall on my knees. Life has never been the same since.

On the 22nd of December 2021 I fully committed. I drove 4 hours to get baptised. For the first time in my life there was freshness and solidity in my Spirit. I felt and still feel deep peace. Everything fell into place. Life finally made sense.

My feeling of safety goes beyond my nervous system now. It’s felt in my spirit. 🕊

My trauma healing journey has gotten much deeper, as I can now finally reach depths of some extremely painful issues, that were not possible to reach without Christ.

Today is my 1 year anniversary of giving my life to Jesus. I’m no longer spiritually dead.

HE is who he says HE is. God in the flesh, Emmanuel (God with us). The Prince of Peace

Thank you Jesus for finding me when I had given up on finding The Truth.